Fail.

Here I sit at home, NOT having raced my bike today.

Kicking myself for not getting more sleep last week; for not taking better care of myself.

For having too many beers last night.

For making the same WRONG choices day in-day out.

I had to make the hard choice at about 2:30 this morning, the hard choice which turned out to be the right one, albeit not the fun one.

Having not been able to sleep AT ALL last night (and not having slept properly for over a week), I knew that driving even further from home, subjecting my body to an hour of intense effort in the cold and then trying to drive 3-4 hours home in heavy traffic was going to be biting off way more than I could chew (in fact, I think my body was telling me I'd already done that...).

So I started my car, and drove home. I think it was the right choice, as the intense headache and sore throat I had last night hasn't worsened. I do wish though I'd heeded the warning signs of hot flushes and sore throat yesterday when I was still close to home...idiot.

sigh.

Oh well, I'll race more in Japan next lifetime.